When I was 12 years old,
I made a vow.
I’m sorry 12 year old me.
But I’ll have to break it now.

He came into my life,
We talked for a few days.
And he affected me so much.
Just the thought of him made my heart race.

I would wait for the time
When he’d come online.
We were miles apart.
Yet we were doing just fine.

I remember the day
When he first said he loved me.
I was so caught up in my own little world.
I was too stupid to see.

I said ‘I love you’ back.
The second time he said it.
Then we went on to planning
What we’re gonna do when we finally meet.

Stupid, silly, idiotic old me
Didn’t even realize what was happening.
I went with the flow
I thought it was just a fling.

I didn’t even see
What was right in front of me.
And now it’s too late.
Oh darling I’m sorry.

He listened, he cared
He understood and he shared.
He was the prince who would save me.
He was the one who made me happy.

And now he’s gone
I broke his heart.
The heart that I unknowingly had.
Right from the start.

I can’t sleep, I can’t eat.
I can’t go a second without knowing.
Knowing that you’ll be over this.
That you’ll try with all your being.

I’m ready to take all the insults you throw at me.
I’m ready to be the target of your resentment.
I’m ready to be your punching bag.
I’m ready to take in all the anger you can vent.

But please don’t hate me.
Please don’t leave.
I need you in my life.
It hurts so much you won’t believe.

Baby I’m hurting too.
It’s killing me inside.
I can keep the pain in.
But the tears I can’t hide.


By :   GIG Rafia Bushra




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